fears and tears

There's nothing that comes straight to my mind when concerning fears and tears. Except maybe being unemployed and washing dishes as my father suggests, or ghost stories (I didn't realize it was night when I watched 'Ghost Hunt' anime.. and it's seriously scary!), and I have a mild case of fear of snakes and 'dangerous' animals in face to face encounters of them.

Usually I don't actually keep my mind on the scary parts. I just ignore them. That's how I deal with most of the stuff, ignore and forget. So when there was a cobra in our backyard at home and mom was screaming and my little brother (the poor innocent soul) wanted to go see it, I was the one who was convinced to get a stick and do 'something'. What exactly my mother was expecting me to do, I had no idea. I was just as scared as she was, except I chose to ignore it while she didn't.

When my hip began to hurt badly and my dad said after checking the x-rays that my spine was angling, I chose to ignore the fear that I will end up like my cousin, who had the same genetic sickness and now she's paralyzed after too many mistakes in her spinal operations.

When I do actually get reduced to tears from my fears, I take one minute, cry and scream my heart out, and then again.. I ignore my fears.